As a Twenty-Something

As a Twenty-Something 

Sitting up quickly, feeling dizzy,

seeing sparkles, blacking out,

then shaking awake, I thought

     I had a seizure.

          That Was A Seizure.

               Should I call the doctor.

See a mind's eye image, a re-show

of my waking where I look like

                    I'm fluttering.

     Must not have been out out.

               It was euphoric.

Was it my medicine.

                         or sinuses.

Where have I seen fluttering

                              like that.

     People who lack oxygen

                    to the brain,

          or hyperventilating,

                    orthostatic syncope,

but the flutter was different

                    from fainting. 

I must have given myself

                              an orgasm, 

seriously —jouissance.

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