As a Twenty-Something
As a Twenty-Something
As a Twenty-Something, I really embraced the Miami Vice culture.
While playing solitaire I realized I've made rules for myself like play the cards on the table before you play cards from the deck.
Then I realized how similar the above is to my everyday use of rules.
I think I dress up my stream of consciousness as though it were something mysterious when in fact if I cultivate the habit of reflecting on what went down within a stream, I've found rules and alterations to a set of rules —in cookery for example.
I've also found my mind often sending me currents i didn't ask for:
Est. Shot: Cubicle
After blowing my nose vigorously, bending low down, examining stuff on the floor, sitting up quickly, feeling dizzy, seeing sparkles, blacking out, then shaking awake, I thought I had a seizure!
Currents then:
- That Was A Seizure.
- Should I call the doctor!
- See a mind's eye image, a re-show of my waking where I look like I'm fluttering.
- Must not have been out out.
- It was euphoric.
- Was it my medicine?
- Sinuses?
- Where have I seen fluttering like that?
- People who lack oxygen to the brain.
- Hyperventilating? Orthostatic syncope?
- But the flutter was different from fainting.
- I must have given myself a mental orgasm!
Socrates' daemon?
"Good morning, Socrates."
"Ah, Meno."
"What were you thinking about?"
"Should man deny men food?"
"Slaves?"
"No."
"Then no."
"Should man deny men care?"
"No."
"Deny men medicine?"
"No"
"Deny men medical care?"
"No."
"Should man deny women medical care?"
"No."
"Deny women medicine?"
"No."
"Deny women care?"
"No."
"What if women need abortion?"
"Deny because…"
"Isn't abortion medical care?"
"Yes."
"Go sacrifice a cock to Asclepius. Perhaps then you will recollect how to use reason instead of that worm in your skull."
"So mean!"
My latest current:
Heard some distortion in the high-highs on my Anker sound thingee in the kitchen, so I went to the living room and looked at the gain setting on the equalizer and sure enough it was through the roof! So immediately my mind diverged to gotta post this on mastodon "Lower the gain on yr equalizers, people!" but didn't because suddenly I realized this was a compulsion. My mind had transformed one of my habits into a current separate from what I really needed to do —lower the gain on my equalizer.
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